Life.Now.

I find it interesting how we can exist in our self created world for months without change, until we make one single decision, and the entire deck of cards crumbles beneath you. Most of the time I can predict the impact a particular change will have on my life..but others I underestimate. Letting go of Mike, was just the tip of a very large iceberg in my life. (keep in mind, I hesitate even as I write this blog the futility of it, the purpose it serves in publishing it to god knows who...whatevs.) But I thought I would, for a small moment document the impact, or the change in events it has caused in mine.

In any committed relationship, you take on certain responsibilities. One person always pays the bills, the other makes sure the laundry is done, one washes the car, the other person makes sure the movies get returned on time...and so life together is established. And after seven years, we established a routine. But being newly...it kind of feels like it's you against the world. You realize, in a new light independence with all it's glitz and glamour, freedom and fun-filled nights come with a price. It's you that has to do it all.

But life has a funny sense of timing. Somehow, things never happen in a crescendo....rather like a tsunami on an unsuspecting pansy..lol. So...this is how my personal tsunami has played out...in the last month.

Tests two times a week

Clinical rotations twice weekly

Andrews sixth birthday, with no pictures

Diagnosable anxiety

Ending of a relationship

Saying goodbye to close friends

Mufasa moving in with Mike

A canceled tuition payment

Rescuing parents

And support from places I never expected

Loving family

Wrestling with my own personal demons

Establishing new financial independence

Dividing seven years worth of gathered and treasured goods

Dividing one life in two

Waking up at 3 a.m. to study

Going to bed at 11 p.m.

Sleeping in

Making new friends

Loving the ones I've already made....

And if you're still reading, I'm impressed, haha. So, I don't want this to sound like a sob story...because I treasure life, and I realize that through every storm comes growth and positive change. I have been blessed with incredibly supportive family and friends. But, this is a blog about my life...and this is how it has played out, so far.